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I won't tell you, i won't let you see.
What you mean,
Cause you mean everything.

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It should not matter but it does.
Monday, January 6, 2014 // 1:01 PM

I don't know.
I actually, i truly like it, I felt something, something that i've been denying myself of the past year because, you were my bff and that's that. You know, i'm upset. Well you wouldn't know because i don't want you to.
All this while, when we aren't talking, i have actually been struggling and that's why i didn't talk to you no matter how much, HOW MUCH i miss you. I just don't know anymore. I don't. I regretted what happened, because it created a spark; which shouldn't because i don't want to have the risk of losing you like how i did with her. I didn't want to take things far within myself. It won't happen again because we are friends. Yes friends. It's just me, it's just me.
Sigh.
Why didn't you fight for us?? We're just friends, am i not right? So it shouldn't have been any of a problem to say no. Why didn't you? It's funny how you say i am your friend and you don't want to lose me over someone you won't ever meet. Someone you love. It's just very....i don't know how to put it in exact words.
I'm always the one person that nobody fights for, that one person that is only spoken to when you need someone to talk to, that one person, that friend, that 'yes you are very important, but not important enough to fight for', aint it?
God. Why is this bothering me in the first place?!
What do you want me to do?! What can i do?!

I'm embracing for loss, preparing myself for what's gonna come. Me losing you.
Sigh. I can't take this any more.

Love is weakness.